Isn't it interesting? I update my profile once half a year.

For the reason I jump back to xanga is simple....just wanna give a shout here!!!!!!!! work is stressful but challenging. ppl coming and leaving in my team, depressing. Other issues...dun wanna talk about the even more depressing things.

My place was just a mess last 2 weeks. I can't say it has improved a lot but still....it is a place a human being can stay for 2 more weeks.

Mahjong nite and crazy drinking nite probably as ppl are coming over. It's a good time force me to tidy up my place. gosh......dun wanna move during this rainy day.

So, how's everyone?

Training time

It's been a year I haven't dropped anything in xanga. Now, I am back.

I have been here for 5 weeks. The weather here is so bad. The time here isn't that relaxed as what people told us. However, all in all, it's good to travel around during weekend and afterwards.

2 more weeks to go. I can't imagine I can get out of office for such a long time.

btw, today is my first anniversary.

ok, These days are very harsh for my family.

First: ESF told us the insurance won't cover the death of my cousin.coz ESF is not necessary to get the insurance for students when they are having outing. I want to let you know that this is a school which charges every student almost $100,000 per year.
Second:  I went to the place where my cousin fell in Sai Kung with my aunt and uncle and I have to keep my emotion inside, stay very strong and can't even drop a tears at that moment. Very harsh...
Third: I started packing my cousin's stuff and there comes so many sweet memories. He treasured everything I got him and those things will be put in his coffin. I swallowed my tears back when i did the packing coz my aunt and uncle cried.
Fourth: My grandma had a stroke yesterday night and was sent to the hospital and has her left body paralysis. She can't speak clearly but I am glad that she recognize my face.
Fifth: Went to the mortuary with uncles and aunts this morning coz we have to transfer the corpse to the funeral home. wat a sad moment when we saw his cold body and white lips. Again, I didn't cry.
Sixth: the doctor called my uncle at noon and my uncle was told that there is a blood clotted in my grandma's right brain and she will forever lose her left body moving ability. She can't eat properly and there is a possibility that she might have the second stroke. Everyone on the car was upset.
Seventh: My dear boss is still pushing me to reply his email and wanna catch me back for meeting even I have told him how bad the situation I have had and he just doesn't care. I really doubt a human can still concentrate on his work when his love dies. The reason he did his kindness to me is "I just want to help". But I know everyone would say he is crazy. His first response to the news was "why the newspaper didn't report the case". Well, I decide  to ignore him, this stupid ppl.

ok, I'm now under a great stress, so, i decide to dig my head into the novels and try to kick away the bad mood. I hope it helps. And I really want to meet up my friends. I need support

Eighth: My grandma passed away at 9:57pm, we gave her a kiss and said goodbye to this lovely grandma who was always happy. This is the second time I saw my daddy cried. I can't believe I have lost two lovely family member in 3 weeks time. What can I do?

被愛是一種幸福, 但有機會去用心愛著一個人也是幾生修來的福氣.
愛, 永遠在我們的肩膊上

已經沒有什麼可怕了.  

my heart is aching....

every moment I spend with you is the moment I treasure.